My Angels of mercy, there have only been a few, and you all at care2 know about how I feel about you all, so I thought I would make my first blog here about 5 family members who without them, I wouldn't exist and that is a fact. first is My Mom, she cherished Me, when none other did, except my grandparents,but they were far away, She did the best She could, and stood by Me, when none else would. Even when She was disapointed, Her love never failed, or wavered. If it hadn't been for Her intense Love I would not have survived my childhood. When the rest of my family, aunts, uncles,grandmas and grandpas all gone, now,sisters,brother,cousins a mass, all deserted me and won't even return calls when calling for help with their sister (My Mom). All I ever wanted from anyone was just to be loved. She made me by hand long dresses to the ground just the way I liked them,when all my sisiters wanted was jeans, i wore pinefores even after I graduated. Too much a Pollyanna in this modern world, I just wanted to ride in a covered wagon, just like my Great Grandma, Minnie Disney.( must interject that at long long last I have found my long lost sisters who deserted me in my new loving caring reality checking sisters here at care2) then,after my sons' Dad, took himself to heaven away from my sons' and I. I have never been the same. I had 11 children all told (lost 3 before they were born, they're waiting in heaven for me (so I have to make sure I get there! to know these souls of mine I have missed) many years passed,and I was so blessed by each of my precious girls, i was in heaven on earth so treasured I was having curls to curl, and dresses to sew and match! but alas... they grew up, now blessings, and pain mix, most everyday,but there was a point when I would have gone instantly from 5 to none over night, I surely would have died. But an angel in the form of my long lost precious son came to rescue me. they tried to get him to leave, but he quit his job trucking to go into poverty with me,homeless, again, then, a few yrs later,when she was 16, my precious daughter sacrificed her future to be with us. She left her only sister left to her (her twin) she left her behind to safe Me!. a year later God sent Us a blessing the world has not yet been fully blessed with, one last chance maybe to give up on giving up, my baby was having a baby, this blessing saved all of our lives,homeless yet again, they had me so dopped I couldn't function, they'd had me that way for years, I had so many medical problems, it is a miracle I survived that alone, but once more God interviened and gave us 3 one very good reason to change. we dedicated our lives to jointly doing all we could to do better than good by him! Somehow, only God at the wheel, We turned it alll around and been climbing ever since. till just a month plus things changed,forever. My Daughter and I weren't done being tested.My rock, My shield, I should n't have put my faith in human fllesh, but as a result of all . My beautiful Daughter is blooming and coming into Her own, I am so amazed and overwhelmed with pride everyday by her! and my Grandson? He is God's most precious gift, an angel sent from God, before He was even born. He has been swimming like a fish since He was 4 mos old. You see God gave us a sign that even the Dr.s missed! The day after He was born I discovered He had matching webbed toes! He is our little ducky from heaven, come to recharge us 3.I watch Him every day, You see, My Daughter (oh, She is so careful and in charge!) has honored Me with not only forgiveness, but withthe Trust of Het most precious gift from God! I am so thankful each and every day for the people who have touched My,(and My children's lives, and now my grandchildren's lives as well!) I haven't talked with My Sisters in over 28 years, but it is funny, it doesn't hurt the way it did a month+ ago!! thank you all for all your care!! Cathi